Why is it so hard to admit things to others?
Writing about my wanting to slow down, makes me feel as if I am a failure. As if I can't handle being busy. I find myself wanting to explain, I can I really really can, I just don't want to!
Writing about wanting to save money, be more frugal, makes me feel as if everyone will think we are poor. We may not be millionaires, but I do not think we are poor. I feel self employment has it's waves of ups and downs yes, but I just want to be more wise with my money. Yet I keep thinking, I don't want people to think we are poor so I have to do these things.
Why am I like that? Why should it matter?
I suppose it is my pride, and I know that it shouldn't matter, so I suppose these to are things I should be working on as well.