When my husband and I first got together we thought we would have five children. After our fourth was born, several people suggested we stop there. We then tried to help a couple have a baby through surrogacy. After four unsuccessful months, the couple wanted to take a break. I got pregnant and miscarried that baby. I feel that baby was given to me to grow my relationship with the Lord. After I miscarried, we decided to go ahead and have our fifth, like we wanted after all. Gala came and much against my husbands wishes I had a tubal ligation.
Around three years later, I felt God calling me to have that reversed. One day I fasted and prayed and the number eight was heavy on my heart. Within just three months I had a tubal reversal and was already expecting again! When our sixth child was eleven months old, I discovered I was expecting our seventh. Needless to say we make babies very easily. It's the one thing we do do right :-)
Syhven is now a year old and I just started cycling again. I have to admit I am both scared and excited. I absolutely love being pregnant. However after number eight, what am I to do? We have discussed my husband getting a vasectomy (he doesn't really want to) or do we just trust in God and let go of control? My husband does not want endless children, ours are quiet the handful, not quite walk the perfect path children I keep seeing in these quiverful families. I do not want endless children. Someday I would like to be finished with the baby stage. I won't lie they are getting a bit much to handle at times. Plus didn't that number 8 mean were going to have eight children here on earth?
On the flip side I do feel that it is clear in the bible that we are to let the Lord be in control, but, but, but....Is He going to close my womb after number eight? I am only 30, if He doesn't how many more would we have? Why did He let me feel 8 was it? How will we support them, will it drive me to the looney bin, will our house be a battle field? All so many questions, ugh, what am I supposed to do? Lord please tell me, the Bible, yes, yes, I know, but if you would just tell me with your voice. I mean I hear people say that, due to health reasons, due to financial reasons, due to emotional reasons, due to, due to, whatever reason. That it's ok for them to prevent blessings.
Ok now that I have rambled for far to long. I wanted to share with you a short film, which has me thinking yet again. Thanks to Searching For Simplicity. I urge you all to take just a few minutes to watch this short film from the Moore Family
Around three years later, I felt God calling me to have that reversed. One day I fasted and prayed and the number eight was heavy on my heart. Within just three months I had a tubal reversal and was already expecting again! When our sixth child was eleven months old, I discovered I was expecting our seventh. Needless to say we make babies very easily. It's the one thing we do do right :-)
Syhven is now a year old and I just started cycling again. I have to admit I am both scared and excited. I absolutely love being pregnant. However after number eight, what am I to do? We have discussed my husband getting a vasectomy (he doesn't really want to) or do we just trust in God and let go of control? My husband does not want endless children, ours are quiet the handful, not quite walk the perfect path children I keep seeing in these quiverful families. I do not want endless children. Someday I would like to be finished with the baby stage. I won't lie they are getting a bit much to handle at times. Plus didn't that number 8 mean were going to have eight children here on earth?
On the flip side I do feel that it is clear in the bible that we are to let the Lord be in control, but, but, but....Is He going to close my womb after number eight? I am only 30, if He doesn't how many more would we have? Why did He let me feel 8 was it? How will we support them, will it drive me to the looney bin, will our house be a battle field? All so many questions, ugh, what am I supposed to do? Lord please tell me, the Bible, yes, yes, I know, but if you would just tell me with your voice. I mean I hear people say that, due to health reasons, due to financial reasons, due to emotional reasons, due to, due to, whatever reason. That it's ok for them to prevent blessings.
Ok now that I have rambled for far to long. I wanted to share with you a short film, which has me thinking yet again. Thanks to Searching For Simplicity. I urge you all to take just a few minutes to watch this short film from the Moore Family
I am so glad to see that there are other families out there who decide to accept all the blessing they can get! We also want somewhere between 6 & 8.
ReplyDeleteIt is our family motto that Heavenly Father hasn't brought us this far just to watch us fail. He has led us, inspired us & protected us because he sees more in us than we can even comprehend!
So trust that if He sends you 8 souls to your family, its because He trusts you enough to care for, nurture & raise them. Things will always work out & often times blessing come from places and people you would least expect it!
Thank you for sharing your heart :) This is a beautiful post <3
ReplyDeletethank you both for your comments, they are so appreciated and taken to heart.
ReplyDeleteHere's a great article on this topic, from a mom of 8
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Blessings to you as you seek the Lord's guidance.
tried this link it just took me to a variety of blogs?
DeleteSorry! Don't know why it's not working. Well, if you google "resolved 2 worship blog" you should find Alyssa's blog.
DeleteKnow what? I think it's http instead of www:
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Oh....I am so right there with you. Already having a bigger than average family and facing these same issues is hard. I have the same struggles and doubts. 6-8 children is one thing- but what about 12-15? When you are young and already have a big family, that is a possibility. But is it really all that different?
ReplyDeleteTammy, I thought that to. I mean I used to say, one or two or even three more, would it really be that much different. but the truth s, the more we have I am realizing, yes it actually does make a difference. The cost for clothing, regardless of thrift stores or used it still adds. We pass alot down, but the older they get the different body types they ahve. plus some are far enough apart we don't have room to save their cloths. and the baby years. i haven't had a full nights sleep in years! if you homeschool, that gets a little harder, or at least I think so. i don't know maybe I am just whining. I just want to do whats right and be content with that.
DeleteLovely blog! Such a wonderful family. God bless.
ReplyDelete(found you via the Finally Friday blog hop by the way)
Recently my husband and I were wondering this same thing...and one thing we heard was that God told us to go forth and multiply, so except in special circumstances, he is probably not going to close wombs. I'm not sure what I think about that yet, but it's definitely something to ponder!
ReplyDeleteJade
I know, I love your blog. Found you on blog hop as well :) http://iheartpears.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, hon, you're really wrestling with a lot right now! I saw your post on your FB page about homeschooling and I just felt moved to contact you and share some encouraging thoughts. I sent you an email (I thought it would be better than leaving a ridiculously long comment here! LOL)
ReplyDeleteI hope it lifts your spirits a bit. I'm sending loving thoughts your way and wishing you clarity and peace as you make some tough decisions.
Hugs, Jenn
I'm with Cami-- it takes a lot of courage to share your heart--thanks for that.
ReplyDeleteAloha,
Following ya from bloggy moms. I would love it if you'd visit me at localsugarhawaii.com. We're a diverse little blog and we're working very hard to be a good little blog. Come as you are, come "join the ride".
xo,
Nicole
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I am now following you from the blog hop via gfc. Wow what a family. There must be a lot of cooperation in the house.
ReplyDeleteI believe that the Lord has commanded us to multiply and replenish the Earth, but he has also given us our own free agency to stop having children when we have reached our capacity. Obviously we are meant to have children, but we are also meant to take the best care of them we can. And if there are circumstances (money, health, etc.) that might hinder that, then I feel it's ok to use birth control (and use birth control to space kids out so you don't get pregnant when you are still recovering from the last pregnancy! lol). Prayers is the best way to help answer your questions! You have an awesome blog, and it seems like an awesome family too. Good luck with everything. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are a fantastic, creative , and wonderful mother. God will lead you in the right direction. I know that I can not handle anymore. I have been so blessed, and I chose to prevent anymore preganancies by abstaining, and I always have a back up plan. It will be two years in July, and I feel great with my decision. Plus, I have have my own room and space.
ReplyDeleteThat is not always the right choice for every mother. I love being a mom, but I have to focus on my career, because of recent health issues with Rick. I feel you have a level head and your husband will let you know.
I have to admit that seeing all of your precious little ones, brings me joy. I know what a great mother you are, and to it is kind of sad thinking that there may never be another birth. However you deserve the oppurtunity to spend some alone time with your husband, and enjoy grand children someday.
Keep praying. Knowing that you are a woman of God, I know that you will make excellent choices.